Yeah . . . Hi,
I’m still not over the rejection. But I try not to think about it. I’ve read about how I’m supposed to handle it from seasoned writers and from agents. I’m telling myself, it is normal to be rejected. Accept rejection. If I don’t, it means I’m not being a team player in the world of writing and publishing. To be hurt and devastated by rejection is to not have what it takes to get through the whole process, even throughout the career. So this is what they all say.
I’m trying, believe me. Actually, the rejection itself is not what bothers me. It’s the loss of the opportunity to become a client with the particular agent I wanted that bothers me. It is also the “what do I do now (with my story)” that makes me wallow in my situation. I wish agents had time to give a short summary of why they didn’t like it.
She liked my pitch, so it’s not the story idea. I know that it’s a saleable story. How? Because I see that certain writers are going to be writing about this aspect of paranormal genre in upcoming books. I had the idea over three years ago, but I can’t take-off with it, because I’m a beginner. Published authors (I won’t name them), can take off with the idea – they’re already through the door. I can’t even reach out and touch the door, let alone get “one foot” in it.
So here’s what I’m going to do. Like always, go spend money on stuff that has preparatory purpose, but only serves to satisfy my procrastination appetite. You know how it goes. Instead of sitting down and writing, you go and buy colorful pens, highlighters, post-it tabs, dry-erase boards, index cards, how-to books, writing software, and the list goes on. I’ve actually already bought that stuff, plus more – I bought a chain that will have a pendant for every chapter completed, and the only way it joins the string, is it has to connect in with the story.
I already have this stuff, so not much I’ll need to buy. I had only put it to minimal use in months past (basically, until I got bored with it, like a two year old gets bored with a toy). It felt like I could prepare for forever. So I really did only the minimal and got to the beef of writing.
But, I’m going to pull this stuff back out – . Well, first I’m going to clean my room, and organize it into my writing studio. Writing studio. Sounds musey, huh?
Yes, I have a plan. I’m not going to write for about a month. I’m going to learn. How-to books, here I come. Dean Koontz, Ann Rice, here I read. My story, my patient characters – hang on.
Dear Rejection: Feed my soul. Carry me through the process of making great strides in improving my work. Drive me to want nothing but the best words, sentences, scene structures, and characterizations that can tell the story I want to tell in a way that will be enjoyed by all who read it.
WoRd oF tHe daY,
blear –v (bleary-eyed) n
1 : to make (the eyes) sore or watery
2 : DIM, BLUR
blear (adjective form)
: dim with water or tears
2 : obscure to the view or imagination
source: courtesy of Merriam Webster Collegiate Dictionary