What a relief! I finally like my main character. No, I love my main character. Before, through pages and pages of drafts, I hated her. She was pathetic. Writing her stuff (half the main story) was extremely difficult. I could not understand why I couldn’t proceed, why my scenes seemed unaccomplished, then I realized my main character was a brain sore to write about. She was about nothing, did nothing, was too shy and pathetic to interest even her own chapter mates (and this is coming from a writer who loves every character she creates).
Of course, I created the character that way, because well, that’s how I wanted her to start out . . . you know, shy. How the hell did I expect readers to enjoy reading about the character if I didn’t enjoy writing about her.
I tried all ways up ’til Sunday trying to figure out how to make it work. I even read Carrie by Stephen King just to see how he managed to do it with his pathetic main character. It helped only a little. My character needed to be realistic otherwise.
Finally, I threw my hands up and changed her. I made her less shy and more nonchalant and quick-witted. She still doesn’t fit in, but now instead of being a wannabe, she’s more content being an outsider. At least, at first. Instead of having her running behind people by changing herself, I’m going to have her change on her own terms . . . still have her feel okay with being an outsider . . . meanwhile, other people begin to find her appealing. And voilà! I’ve finished the first chapter… yay!
Oh, I just love her now! Onward creative soldiers!
WOrD of tHe Day
1 : to run at the nose
2 : to snuff mucus up the nose audibly : SNUFFLE
3 : to cry or whine with snuffling
4 : to speak or act in a whining, sniffling, tearful, or weakly emotional manner
taken from Merriam Webster Collegiate Dictionary